Learning to Dream Tags: Campaign: What Do You Dream About?   20 Reviews Added: 10/22/2008 8:26 PM PT Last Modified: 10/22/2008 8:26 PM PT	Auto Post to Websites
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What do I dream about? As I sit here, I have just lost a best friend. Someone who was the center of my world for most of my high school life. He was always there when I didn't want to be me anymore, telling me that being me was definitely okay. Together, we always had dreams. He and I were going to move to New Orleans or New York or Tennessee together because he refused to let me go alone. With every day that passed, the dreams that we had changed as well. Together, we were going to attend the wedding of our very best friend. These were the ultimate dreams of my teenage existance. The future looked bright and clear.
It's amazing how in an instance dreams can be turned inside out. His girlfriend stepped in and put up every wall imaginable around him. I find myself fighting to break through but no matter how hard I try, I hit the wall and fly backwards. Tonight was the final stand because I can't fight the wall anymore. I refuse to.
Now my dreams have changed. They have changed in a matter of minutes, and I know they will continue to do so. It's new for me because I don't have my partner in crime anymore. For the first time, I've had to plan what I want for me. ME and only me. The dreams I hold now are no longer of the teenage mind but that of an upcoming adult. In the upcoming year, I will be leaving for college in Tennessee. That's three hundred miles away from everything I know and that's a big step for me. I'm absolutely terrified. I dream of being able to graduate from college and have my masters in Elementary Education. I love the idea of being able to help a child just like I was find out what they dream. Whether they want to be a teacher, doctor, or lawyer. It's all up to them. I dream about the day where I can tell a child sitting in my classroom that it's okay to be themselves and that sometimes you have to lose something so dear to you that it brings you to your knees in order find out what YOU want.
There is one thing that I'll say I learned from this. Sometimes you have to fall all the way down to the bottom to learn how to climb back to the top. Losing this friend made me realize that I can dream on my own. I don't need someone to tell me how I should live my life or what I should do with my life. On my own, I can dare to dream knowing that there is no right or wrong answer and that's the greatest feeling of all. I think I always had dreams, but I wasn't always sure how to execute them. Now that I'm learning to dream, I know exactly where I want to be.... And right now, that is right where I am.