I just spent an hour writing about who I am but I lost all my work to a finicky computer.  Sorry but I don't feel like recreating it.  Just imagine that I wrote some generic piece about how I love dogs, and nature, and horseback riding, and art, and hanging out with my friends, and partying, and music, and surfing, and Law and Order.  That's not at all what I wrote and only some of it is true, but I'm confident that your life won't be permanently altered because I didn't disclose what my favorite cereal is.  Okay...it's Raisin Bran.  See, that knowledge didn't change a thing did it?

Okay I'm in the mood to add a little more about me...  I am a true Libra, but not in the well-balanced kind of way; more in the constant state of trying to balance things kind of way.  I need justice, fairness, equality and I am a stickler for rules as long as I think the rules are fair to everyone.  I tend to fight passionately when I feel justice isn't being served; that is until I give up and move on to my latest agenda.  It's not that I stop caring...I just have a tendency to want to explore an issue from every angle to make sure I'm being fair and I get overwhelmed and feel like I can't possibly do everyone justice and I put it on the back burner.  I'm great at initiation and terrible at follow-through.

I have Narcolepsy which means I am "extremely pathologically sleepy" (those are the words my doctor used in her official report).  For a narcoleptic, trying to stay awake is considered to be similar to an average person trying to stay awake after 36 hours without sleep.  My narcolepsy sometimes brings with it some rather humorous hallucinations when I am falling asleep.   Luckily, I don't pass out in a bowl of soup like in the movies (the sudden loss of muscle tone is called cataplexy and only some narcoleptics have it).  But I do have a tendency to curl up and take a nap in inappropriate places like restaurants and nightclubs.  Without my medication I could probably sleep for days.  I hate it when people say, "it must be nice to sleep so much" or "you're lucky...I can never sleep".  Trust me, just because I sleep a lot doesn't mean it is quality sleep.  It is kind of like the exhaustion of an insomniac except that I don't have as much time to get stuff done because I am always sleeping.  I started as an undergraduate Psychology major at UCLA in 2000.  I still haven't finished.  The last few times I tried to take classes I had to drop them because of my Narcolepsy and other neurotic reasons.  I feel guilty that I haven't finished yet but I don't know what else to do.  My medication costs $240 a month with insurance but I can't work full time because I can't stay awake.  I'm just venting right now.  I've been very blessed my whole life...I still am.  I'm a pretty silly person...I like to be goofy which can be annoying.  I try not to take myself too seriously, but I often do.  I tend to give too much information.  I enjoy crafts.  I love psychology.  I'm really good at research but I also tend to get so caught up in my research that I go on a million other researching tangents.   I am a natural blonde but I'm intelligent.  People who think they know everything piss me off.  I am always indecisive because I know I don't know everything.  Sometimes I wish I knew everything so I could be more decisive...but then I'd piss myself off.  I am never finished with anything.  I always feel like there is more to say or do.  When I write things they tend to go on forever.  Case in point.  There is a good chance I will delete this tomorrow because I don't think it's good enough.  I really want to sleep right now.  I'm hoping you're not still reading this because it's embarrassing, but part of me wishes somebody would care enough to read this much.  I'm the type of person who would read this much.  I care.  I sleep now.

My long term goal is to work with special needs children in an educational or theraputic capacity.  My immediate goal is to win money so I can finish school (oh yeah, and find the energy to go back).